dear diaree.
some stuff happened on friday. found out something and yea i guess for those few minutes was kinda shocked then pissed for the next hour then disappointed then wahtever. there really wasnt a reason for me to be pissed i guess, not like the person was anything to me directly, right? jst tt yea. realising tt maybe im nothing but face value and "fun". but thats it. no guy ever gives a shit long enough to realise im pissed or hurting bad y`knw? i mean. okays its not against anyone, maybe someone does.
dewei and marcos standing joke about the queue looks like thats all its gna be. *shrugs. i guess no one`s been standing long enough to switch the closed sign to open. well i guess there`s yoo* who`s always been around, but we`ve alrdy shared tt smth and yoo jst seem to be fantasizing over another girl`s ass everytime i hear wind of yoo. mmhmms. ahhs. i sound like an ungrateful ass. i am really. i love da guys dearly. jst y`knw, yoo hear love songs .<3 and its shitty cos there`s no particular person to share it with. i didnt assume we were anything more than `brother sister`. jst the way yoo treated me and looked and me i guess mislead me. *shrugs. and yea, it felt like for the first time in awhile, someone was treating me right and took me more than jst face value. but oh wells.
okays. so i had a pretty amazing saturday. shall include it in my hi-list later (:
eoys are in approximately 15 days time. dnos why 307 suddenly became even more hardworking with a venegeance. we were all pestering out ft for the exam schedule lols! dont think i feel more confident, but i definitely feel a helluva lot more organised. i`ve decided. mon to thurs is my mugging days. fri and sat is my friends/cdc days and sunday is my family/studying days. how does tt sound? lols. i`ll still keep online days as.. everyday if poss. hahahahs. wells. finally done uploading my marmies pics. gna go back to ss alrdy (: yipee. oohs and at religious class theres this adorable baby! omar! he was rattling stuff while i was doing reading. too adorable (: i love babies. their innocence is beautiful.
hi list
hi omar!
hi brenda!
hi andre!
hi james!
hi dewei!
hi taryn!
hi rishik!
hi jas!
hi selv!
hi mich!
hi matt!
hi rena!
hi liz!
hi amirul!
hi marco!
okiepokes. tts it for now.
/cause they only want..
if yoo were my one and only
i`d stickwitu forever.
nads.
__SMILE (:
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